General Musings, Lifestyles

Making Positive Steps to Create Change

I am feeling pretty positive at the moment as I really feel like in my work life I have started to take back some control, have some agency in my own future rather than just waiting.

As I previously mentioned I haven’t been particularly happy at work. I just feel that I have been doing rather than enjoying my job.Which sucks for me as I need to feel passionate about what I am doing and engaged.

I do realise that I have to take accountability for my situation, I made the decision to apply and go for my current job last year and was accepted, but if I am honest I applied for it as a sensible option rather than as a dream job, I really want to take this career move kind of deal. So that was never great foundations.

Still, I came back and I have been trying, I’ve never been someone who wants to produce bad work and I have been giving 100% as much as possible, but for me at the moment it’s a really hard 100% and I feel less than engaged. At first I thought it was maybe because I was coming back after illness and I was taking time to re-adjust etc. But really the feeling hasn’t gone away and the longer I have been in the position the more I know it is not right for me, and it was the wrong move.

But I decided to stop being negative and start creating the changes I want and making positive steps to create this change.

1. Keeping in the Loop
Currently we are undergoing a team restructure/re-vamp where I work with our new Director.We don’t all know what is happening or the full details, this is being discussed with the Heads of teams and we are gleaning tidbits. However, I specifically spoke to my old manager who I have a very good relationship with to see what was going on and get a general lay of the land.Which proved very helpful and opened up potential avenues to work within a new style team (under my old manager) that I feel sound more interesting.

2. Looking back at Career
I really took some time out to re-consider all my past jobs, their experiences and the areas that I have enjoyed within these roles so that even if I feel the new team and it’s potential roles and work sound interesting I am not just doing it as a desperate measure to leave my current place.

3. Talking to People
This was a key one for me, particularly talking to my old manager about how I have been feeling and expressing an interest in where I want to see my career develop in the future and just getting advice on how to approach it. It also means that they have been a really good advocate for me, and in restructure talks have it in mind that I want a change.

4.Being Active in Promoting Myself
Although I had the support of other people I wanted to be pro-active and talk to my Director directly about how I was feeling, where I saw myself etc. I was lucky in that following an earlier one to one, and the talks he had been having, that he wasn’t too surprised about what I had to say and was exceptionally receptive and agreed that I need that change. So this felt very positive. Even though he was receptive it felt much nicer for me to know that I had been pro-active and hadn’t just relied on other people, as it is my career that I need to control. I  have a follow up next week, post when the proposed changes go to the board and prior to them being discussed with the whole team, so I am intrigued as to what will be discussed.

These aren’t necessarily revolutionary steps. Just the things that I did but they have massively helped my outlook as I feel less passive. So while they are  only little steps, sometimes that is just what you need.

General Musings, Slimming World

Thinking Positive Thoughts

Thinking some positive thoughts today, and  found these great little quotes,  I am not just thinking positive just for weight loss and slimming world but also for life in general. I have to stop thinking change and start making actions to create change otherwise I will never truly be happy.

I have to realise that just because I have this good job, and I haven’t been in it long, if I am not happy, not fulfilled and not enjoying it, then I don’t have to stay. Even if I don’t up an leave at once I can begin making decisions to create that change; do a learning course, job hunt, re-connect with networks.

I am not static and I am not fixed.



Exercise, Lifestyles, Slimming World

Week 16 @ Target: smashed it, now maintain it

I had a really motivating weigh in this week after coming in with a -4lb loss! This means that I lost all 3.5lbs of my Christmas and New Year gains, and some extra, so I am really really pleased! Of course this doesn’t mean one can get complacent, I still need to ensure that I am reaching my other monthly motivation goal – exercising at least once a week.

I am definitely being more active at work where possible – going out for at least a 20 minute stretch of the legs, which all counts as body magic. I changed jobs at the end of the last year which also meant a campus change and I just don’t find myself moving as much on the new campus – just less need to, I miss the old campus I was on, it was more buzzy, energetic and more reasons to get up and go for a walk somewhere (even if it was work related!). So I need to be consistent at it, and also ensure I am doing more exercise out of work too.

But on the whole that was a very very positive weigh in! I am pleased to have kick started off my first proper weigh in and group on that note. It does give you a good mindset and you feel more motivated to keep going. Well I do.

Lets hope I can keep the momentum going for next week too.


Lifestyles, Slimming World, Ulcerative Colitis

Week 6 @ Target: and a loss!

So while I am definitely not back in target range (still quite a bit to go) I am feeling far more positive as I came in with a -2lb loss this week.

I wasn’t 100% on plan but I definitely made a more conscious effort to eat better choices, and yes I probably over syned on a couple of days but I wasn’t as bad as I have been and I felt more in control to say no to temptation.

So overall I am feeling positive, I have a few ‘danger days’ to watch out for coming up this week but I am hoping I can be on top and manage overall.

I had a good lunch today that reminded me how good Slimming World can be as a diet; jacket potato, big side salad and as a topping a WHOLE TUB of reduced fat Cottage Cheese with chives, as it is completely syn free – yum!

Wish me luck!

Lifestyles, Slimming World

Feeling the changes!

So on Bank Holiday Monday I went clothes shopping with my BF, and I was a bit naughty as I had a McD’s for lunch – but I offset it later with free food!

But that’s not the point of this post, this is a bit of a companion piece to my weigh in, the point of this post is that I went clothes shopping and didn’t come home on a massive downer because nothing fit me. In actual fact everything I tried on fit me, bar a skirt that is made for someone with no meat apparently! But overall this was a great feeling for me, normally I feel like I look awful, that somehow I have developed two bellies or it just hugs me wrong, but not this time.

Yes I tried on some clothes that just didn’t suit me, so I didn’t get those, but to actually go clothes shopping, buy clothes that fitted and I felt good in them – that was liberating and so nice!  So while I haven’t reached my target weight and I still have a way to go  on this dieting, healthy journey I am feeling like it is absolutely possible and I am looking forward to getting there.


Lifestyles, Slimming World

Slimming World: Week 11 +0.5lbs

Well I didn’t manage to lose but infact put on? I think I am still out of my mojo mode and need to get back into it more, I definitely made a conscious effort to be more pro-active and to make better choices in the week coming up. I allowed myself to relax on Saturday though as I was in London with my mum to see Memphis, my birthday present, so that is perhaps what tipped it. I was however also ‘ON’ -you know the big ‘on’ that week and that makes me bloated and retain water so it definitely wasn’t a help at all!

Still it’s no excuse and with having to miss again next week due to a late night work event I am just going to be on it over the next two weeks!